| 007; 11 November 1980. |
[November 11; 10:28am] |
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[Warded to Frank] How is Alice? How are you? What are you not telling me?
What can I be doing besides keeping Neville for the two of you right now? Shall I have the house elves make up a cottage pie to send over tonight?
[Warded Private]First Cadman, and now this with Alice; When has our family suffered enough? I suppose we are not the only ones suffering, as there are these people who have been kidnapped and possibly have even been murdered, and they are from many families outside of ours. I wonder at what the government is working on. And I cannot fully blame the DMLE, I know how diligently Frank, and Alice for that matter, work to keep their country safe.
Perhaps it is merely the autumn - or really almost winter. I am tired of being inside the house and I miss the gardens and the sense of productivity I feel when I am in there. I dislike feeling useless and at the moment I cannot help but feel useless.
I need some occupation or I will drive myself mad. The holidays will be upon us shortly so perhaps I can begin to think of those. They will be less than they might have been because how can we not be painfully aware of Cadman's absence among us, but perhaps it is all the more duty to ensure they are a memorable one. It will be Neville's first Christmas after all and that is something to be celebrated, not mourned.
I realise that the holidays will be upon us shortly. It seems that they have come much more quickly this year. I wonder if anyone will feel remotely celebratory.
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| 006; 20 October 1980. |
[October 20; 03:08pm] |
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[Warded Private] I still am not used to the quiet in the house. I do not know if I will ever get used to such quiet. I know that Cadman and I did not spend much time together throughout the day - meals, mainly, and a bit of quiet time before bed, but it is beyond odd to go through these steps without him. I keep expecting him still to come home and to be here tonight, or tomorrow night, or the night after. But I know that he will not and to keep thinking along such lines is foolishness.
I must move on with my life. Frank has checked the wards several times over and I am not afraid to walk among the gardens during the day although I admit that I am wary at night even when it is not the full. Still, Neville and I were able to sit out for a bit of time this afternoon and although it was chill, it was a good bit of fresh air.
I find myself more uninterested in politics than I was before and the meetings I attend bore me, but I have no doubt that this will pass. At any rate, it must past because one does not stop living because others around you have done so.
I must think about what is in front of me. Meeting with Aludra as she looks forward to her marriage - although I wonder if she truly looks forward to it. Mr Avery is a nice enough man I am certain, but so much older than she is that it must make such a union difficult to consider - even if she has had enough time to do so.
And I find myself thankful for Neville even as I wonder how Alice manages without him. It should be her with him at these moments, but for the moment I cannot be anything but grateful that I am the one with him. He is a delight and a blessing, and he keeps the house from being lonely silent.
[Warded to Aludra]Your invitations are lovely my dear, and I am certain the wedding is going to be so as well. Do you have time to join me for tea this coming weekend?
[Warded to Frank & Alice]I know you are both busy, but would you wish to join me for dinner Friday evening?
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| 005; 11 October 1980; whatever happened to class? |
[October 11; 05:56pm] |
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[Warded Private] On the bright side Frank did not decide to marry someone with as little class and taste as Miss Dorcas Meadowes.
What is the necessity for such language? It makes one appear as common riff raff.
I have no idea what this generation is coming to.
[Added Later, Still Private]Cadman would have- 
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| 004; 11 October 1980. |
[October 11; 12:26am] |
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I wish to thank all of you who attended my husbands funeral this afternoon. It means a great deal to the family.
[Warded Private] So that is done. It was well, I believe. Family and friends, and Cadman would have been pleased with the number of people that attended, although likely would have thought the entire thing quite foolish. & it is, I suppose. But it is what people expect and it was needed.
Tomorrow I get up and well and truly begin life on my own. I suppose there is a first time for everything.
[Warded to Frank]Will you come by tomorrow morning and double check all of the perimeter wards? I am certain that those around the house are perfectly fine but after everything - well, and whatever Mrs Malfoy might be thrilled about, I prefer to know who is checking with, adding to, or tampering with my wards.
[Warded to Longbottoms by marriage and birth]The lawyer will be here to read the will tomorrow afternoon. I will have a light supper at the house for anyone who wishes to stay after.
[Warded to Aludra]Thank you for your assistance my dear. If there is anyway I can repay your kindness, do not hesitate to ask.
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| 003; 6 October 1980; Afterwards. |
[October 06; 10:37am] |
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[Warded to Frank]
Arrangements.
Location: Home
Date: Wake; Friday evening (?), Funeral & Burial; Saturday (?) - Earlier? Later? Personally I think the weekend as your father deserves to have a time when people may easily attend.
Speaker:
Bearers: Algie, Secundus, Caius, Frank - whom that is not family?
Flowers.
Food.
Obituary - I will write this, can you see that it makes it into the Prophet?
Other...
[Warded Private]One foot after the other.
[Warded to Alic
[Warded Private]I really have nothing to say.
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| 002; 29 September 1980; Secundus |
[September 29; 10:33am] |
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I can certainly understand the desire of the Ministry to make certain its citizens are well protected. I can also understand that there are many who have few to no wards around their homes. But personally, I would like to know exactly what they plan to do on the old family estates that will be so much safer than what is currently there. For those of us who have had magic in our families for generation and the wards have been built upon for centuries, it seems superfluous to have ministry employees out to 'make our homes safer' when they are quite secure to begin with. It seems that classes for citizens, or a service offered for citizens to improve their home security would make far more sense and be a better use of resources. That way old families that have new homes could make use of it, new families that have less knowledge could make use of it - it solves, essentially, the problem at hand. So far as I know, nobody has been kidnapped from an ancient wizarding estate. In other words, if something is not broke, why should we waste our energy and resources attempting to fix it? I approve of the intention behind the plan, but I am yet uncertain about the implementation.
On the other hand, it may be amusing to see someone add new wards to our home. Cadman is always saying that his great grandfather's idea of appropriate wards can bite someone's hand off - in some cases literally. Certainly whomever they send will want to be careful. There are some corners of the property one wants to handle just so.
[Warded to Frank & Alice] It was good to see you both on Friday evening. Your father and I enjoyed it tremendously.
Neville and I have been playing following the teddy bear this morning. I move it, he watches it - it is always fascinating to me how the smallest thing can entertain both baby and caregiver for hours on end.
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| 001; 23 September 1980; The First. |
[September 23; 12:42pm] |
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[Warded to Alice] Neville is rather fussy today. I think he is coming down with a cold.
[Warded to Frank]Are you free Friday evening?
I confess I will miss the warm days when they are no longer with us. Summer afternoons in the garden are much preferable to being cooped up indoors. I suppose I shall have to look at my reading list and see if I need to refresh it in preparation for winter.
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| 000a; Astrology |
[August 12; 03:59pm] |
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And the planets of the universe
Go their way
Not astounded by the sun or the moon
Or by the ( Day )
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